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Day 8: Recovering from a day of failures, F***-ups, and frantic emotions.
I woke up today thinking that I would feel recovered from yesterday’s mess, but I still felt a pit in my stomach and had nothing but failure on my mind. Although I had successfully created my first dish for my new series, Saucy Sundays, the unexpected earthquake really shook me (no pun intended).
I mean, I tried my best to forget about it, focus on work, and pray the negative thoughts away, but they were stuck to me like glue. I couldn’t shake them off even if I tried. I noticed I wasn’t as productive as I wanted to be with work. My conversations with family and friends were filled with distraction. And my appetite was out on vacation. I had assumed this time abroad would be filled with fun and adventure the entire time. WELP! I WAS WRONG!
Luckily, I have pretty good self-awareness. I knew that a moment like this would come sooner or later. A moment where I would be stuck in my head, pacing the floors back and forth, and a railroad of thoughts. I shopped for and packed a few of my favorite things when I am feeling low:
(yummy hot chocolate, foot mask and pedicure kit)
Feeling Better
Okay, so it’s been a few hours since I’ve written the statements above, and I can tell you now that I am feeling 60% better. I just took a relaxing HOT shower, and I was able to get a beautiful glimpse of the moon. Now I know my photo (below) isn’t worthy of National Geographic, but it brought a smile to my face. I was instantly reminded that sometimes, not all the time, but sometimes, our issues can be so small and trivial. Yes, I was dealing with major fear and anxiety. However, I have air in my lungs and a roof over my head. I am safe and I have people in this world who truly love me. Sometimes remembering that is enough. And other times, looking up at the sky is exactly what is needed. Now time for movies…Until tomorrow.
(Yes! I ran out the shower & grabbed my phone just to take this photo for you)
Your friend,
BrookeLynn the Friendly Blogger